When I say give him 4 years, I don’t mean after that we’ll break up. Only he would understand that saying.
Tomorrow would have been our 3 months, we don’t celebrate and say happy monthsary but we knew that it was our day. It’s sad how we didn’t make it. Told him I give him 4 years we didn’t even make it to 1.
I still hurt.
I’ll admit to that, I can feel it inside me when I’m all alone. Usually by now things would be fixed, but it’s not and I’m accepting it. I just need some time, time away from you. I want to cut you out of my life completely and act as if I’ve never met you in my life. I wish we just stayed friends and nothing more came from it. I’m scarred and I haven’t felt this way in a long time. I want to cry cause I haven’t since. Why do I have to hurt like this? I want to delete photos and everything but a part of me isn’t ready too. I just honestly hate feeling this way, I need to keep myself busy and pick myself up.
It bothers me.
Because what I felt seems to be happening. You feel for her and I can see it. Why are you in denial?
This was bound to happen.
I was completely in love with him, but why keep trying when everything is just going to repeat itself? “Sorry’s” do not have the same meaning as they did before. You don’t say you’re sorry and then do the same thing over again. It just makes no sense. I take promises and sorrys serious. I won’t stay in a relationship that does not change. Believe me I loved every bit of it, especially all the great times we had. This was bound to happen and I knew it was coming, and i’m actually okay with it this time.